I know it's not really that much but I'm so excited and I wanted to share it with everyone in this sub. Advance notice: sorry for the extra long post guys but I haven't spoken to ANYONE about any of this at all for years and years. And it just needs to finally spill out of my head and be expressed.
I'm F 163cm/5'4" and I've never had a lot of muscle. An old body composition report put me at almost half fat! Anyway, when I weighed myself about 6 weeks ago on my wonky ass scale, I was about 73-74kgs/161-163 lbs (the scale couldn't make up its mind and kept throwing up a different number every time I stepped on). Keeping in mind that I'm not very active and have a high body fat composition, I'm pretty chubby at the moment.
I have always been hugely pear-shaped - never mattered how slim my upper body was, the hips and butt give me huge curves, so I've never felt 'thin'. I've always been kinda plump in the face and arms as well.
However, over the last 7-8 years now I've seen a slow but steady rise in weight, with the last 4 years in particular seeing me get much chubbier overall and clothes fitting more tightly.
I started eating healthier about 2.5 months ago, and started CICO tracking 6 weeks ago after weighing myself.
As of today, the wonky scale says I'm 70.6kg/156lbs. I've lost my first 2kgs/4.5lbs and I'm incredibly proud!!
It just never felt like something that could happen in reality given how much I love food and comfort eat when stressed.
It's been an ok 6 weeks - I'm aiming for real slow and steady - and even then I'm often hungry. It's an inside struggle I don't talk to anyone else about.
I'm also permanently on medication that seems to change how I experience hunger and is known to cause weight gain (probably because of how it changes the experience of hunger, I figure). So that doesn't help much. But I've been sticking to it and making better choices more often - which still really isn't all the time.
I still eat silly high calorie foods every week like pizza and fried rice and buttery breads, but I track it all now and am much more aware how calorie-dense and therefore fattening these foods are.
I'm also eating a few more vegetables and fruits, and genuinely enjoying them to boot!
As I'm trying to go slow and steady, I don't put too much pressure on myself for now to always be within my calorie limits. I always track, but probably half the days a week I'm over by a hundred or two hundred or three or four... and a couple of days I REALLY busted my budget lol. But that's ok. The other days I stay under, and that's still 1 million times better than being over every single day of the week, which I probably was for a long time.
I just want the journey to be sustainable, especially given the effects of the medication seeming to make me experience hunger more accutely.
Well, that's all. Thanks so much for listening, guys. I'm proud of my little baby loss and I hope to eventually make it to 60kgs/132lbs. So that's another 10kgs/22lbs to go.
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