This is try number 9 or 10 (if we're counting superficially) and perhaps maybe my third genuine attempt at getting back to a place in my life where I felt good about me - in that I didn't think about it all the time.
I'm pretty terrific at making excuses for myself and giving up and feeling that sweet relief of indulgence and then the overwhelming guilt of it all. Yesterday I ate so many desserts and couldn't fall asleep because my stomach hurt from how full I was - I'm ashamed to admit it to anyone except for you guys here. I've been binging for about a year now because it feels like the only comforting thing and I don't think I've ever admitted that out loud, even to myself, until now. But it's almost 2019 and I promised myself this year that I would try to get it together - I've gained nearly 20 pounds since I graduated from college and next year I'll be 25. I don't want to spend any more time feeling un-sexy! It's my youth and I've got to ride these years for all they're worth.
If I can control this one thing in my life, I hope others will follow. These are my goals before the holidays:
1) Quit processed sugars
2) Minimize dinners
3) Minimize meat but eat more protein from eggs!
4) Work out 3-4 times a week
5) Drink more water
I'm starting tomorrow. Please send me support and advice for sticking through. I just want to be able to do this for at least one month and see how my body thanks me.
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