Ugh. I just feel so mentally defeated right now. I fell into a bit of a depression over the last year and gained a bunch of weight. My depression is mostly gone but I did gain a bunch of weight and I’ve just recently gotten back on the wagon to losing it all again (hopefully for the last time)
The past week one of my clients mentioned how it “looks like I’ve put on some weight”. And my boss just randomly came down to make small talk and out of nowhere says the same thing. “Wow you’ve put on a lot of weight” and then just kinda stared at me awkwardly putting me on the spot. I didn’t know what to say. Like I’m going to get into a long conversation with people I don’t know about everything I’ve been through the past year?
It just feels weird. And the boss that came down has a past of being very judge mental and just calling people fat and ugly, so when she came down and said it “looks like I’ve put on weight”, I didn’t take it as it was from someone that was concerned about me.
All this just kinda put me in a sad mood. My thoughts automatically went to “maybe I should just not eat for awhile” and I’m just feeling like a bit of a failure.
What am I supposed to do? I’m at work with 11 hours left in my shift feeling like a fat loser everybody is talking about
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