I was doing super well. I was exercising, counting calories, and the scale was going down. I felt good, which was amazing. People were telling me how good I looked, and I started getting more attention from men in public. Then, it all went downhill.
As stupid as it sounds, it all started going badly when I didn't go to the gym for one specific day. That day, I left work, went to the doctor, and was rushed to the emergency room. Half of my body was numb, my right field of vision was just gone, I was slurring my words and lost all of my fine motor skills. They thought I was having a stroke (a stroke at 22 years old? Crazy). Luckily, I was not having a stroke. I got diagnosed with complex migraines, which basically means that my migraines give me stroke symptoms. It was extremely painful, and I've had three more since this happened. Obviously, that day, I didn't go to the gym. Or the next day, because I was recovering still. Two days, and I was out of my habits. To put a nail in the coffin, my boyfriend (which is a whole other long stupid story) dumped me two weeks later. I've been drinking more than ever, not caring about what I look like because I don't have anyone to motivate me, a reason to be healthy, and I'm just so sad. I'm eating so much, almost as much as I was eating when I was 260+ pounds two years ago. I'm just broken. A lot more is happening in my life, and I just feel so hopeless and lost.
I'm sorry for the pity party, but I need to stop gaining this weight back. I just don't know how I'm gonna turn this around right now.
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