I had RNY in May when I was 258lbs. I'm now 159lbs with 1 pound away from having lost 100lbs!!
Surgery was ridiculously hard. So much harder than I thought it would be but it was the best thing for me.
I tried losing on my own for years but I was dangerously close to diabetes and I wasn't able to lose weight quick enough on my own. This was the right choice for me and for a lot of other people! I didn't know it was an option for me for so long and more people should know about it!
I'm glad I've lost weight. I'm happier and more confident, but I'm starting to have a love/hate relationship with before and afters. I love the me on the left. I had the exact same brain, personality, achievements, sense of humor, etc. Doing before and afters feels like I'm saying I'm better now that I'm not the "me" on the left. I'm proud of myself for making the choice to actually lose weight and get healthy, but I don't want that to mean that I hated who I was. I'm literally the same exact person. That picture was not even a year ago! So, I want to celebrate my progress but I don't want to pretend like I was never that person on the left, because I was. Like, five minutes ago. It's really upsetting now when I notice random people being nicer to me than they were before. That hurts. Losing a lot of weight is hard psychologically. Especially when you lost the weight quickly. I love who I am, regardless of how much I weigh.
WLS doesn't fix bad habits. I'm losing still but my diet it kind of crappy. I still eat the same things I used to, just smaller portions and a lot less sugar (dumping). Carbs are my guilty pleasure and chips and bread go down easy, so they're easy to reach for. I still have to eat meat and veggies very slowly or it hurts, so it makes me not want to eat them.
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